Plunged Into A Sea Of Bad Mood

Even though this entry is a bit time consuming to write, I just really need to get this off my back and rant.

Why is it that when I have so many projects to do to the point where I don't think I have enough time to finish all of them that others just screw me over, wasting even more of my time? It's gotten so extreme that I'm losing hours of sleep (sometimes even no sleep) and having emotional breakdowns every other week. Although I have beefs with my other courses (namely CSC 318), which have added to all the stress I've been experiencing, I must talk about one in particular.

Yesterday was the last straw for me. My prof for my Stage and Costume Design course wanted us to see the Amadeus production for next Monday (it's not even for something we would have to write up for marking- just for our own personal benefit). There were two groups of 4 who planned to go last night because it was pay-what-you-can day where you can only take advantage of the deal if you get 3 or 4 tickets at a time. So my last class ended at 6pm and I hung around school waiting it was time to leave for the show, which was at 8pm. I get to the theatre at 7:45 and most people are inside because apparently the 2 girls who went to pick up the tickets gave everyone their tix in the afternoon at the very beginning of class. That day I got to class late (the only time I had actually arrived late), so I didn't know this exchange occured. I had assumed the girl would hand me my ticket that night. At exactly 8:00 she comes running to the theatre and tells me she doesn't have a ticket for me. She was explaining that something got messed up and my ticket somehow went to someone else! I was on her list, but there was a bunch of confusion that she couldn't even explain to me. WHAT??? &$*@$%! Y'know, if you would have told me in the afternoon, I wouldn't have been waiting around for 2 hours and wasted a subway token to get down to the theatre! Now I have to go by myself tomorrow and pay $30 for the show instead of $10 that I would've paid last night. Unbelievable.

Somehow, people in my drama class seem to have a lot of time on their hands. They don't realize how I'm the exact opposite. For example, we had a play to read for the production we're going to be designing. For this particular play we had to read other plays related to it in order to give us a better understanding of the text. Well, I read the play as well as the extra play and summarized it... and surprise! We're not doing that play anymore. No. We're changing it so now I have to read yet another play.

To add to this time consumption, we're going to attend a workshop for an ENTIRE weekend. It was scheduled for the next weekend of the 8th & 9th (right before my CSC 318 assignment is due and right after having 3 projects due that week heaven's sake), but it was postponed... thank goodness! But now, the class wants to reschedule it for the weekend before exam week...... WHAT ARE THEY THINKING????! The prof asked if anyone had any problems w/ it. I naturally assumed that there would be someone with a problem, but no! So I piped up and exclaimed "I have exams"! Then this girl speaks out and says that everyone else does too. This doesn't make sense to me... don't they have to STUDY then?? So I said, "well my exam is on the Monday right after that weekend... (and first thing in the morning)". Then another girl suggests that I study the week before. WHAT THE HELL?! Some people still have assignments to finish that week, girl! And sorry, my exam isn't as easy as the ones you're taking. These people don't get that I have no time for all of this extraneous stuff! Totally appalling.

I'm going over the edge.