March 16, 2007

Another Year Closer to 30

I'm now officially closer to the age of 30 than 20 and in the last year of my mid-20s. *cries* But luckily I had all that birthday cake — chocolate/vanilla, classic cheesecake, blueberry lemon, and strawberry cheesecake — to ease my sorrows... now it's just my waistline that's crying.

My birthday weekend was a pretty hectic one. Saturday I woke up early from a late night at an old coworker's birthday party to do dim sum in Mississauga, watched 300 on IMAX, which I thought was so awesome (since I can deal with stylized gore!), dinner at Fred's Not Here, where I had some an amazing plate of marinated grilled ostrich steak with apple, cranberry chutney/pecan drizzle and celeriac mash, and dancing at Montana, where the music was a little less than stellar. Sunday I had a little Wii party in the afternoon and my parents held a nice little dinner for me and my "almost twin brother by two days", Jon.

All in all, a fun-filled weekend, but my actual birthday was a dud — zombied through the workday then just crashed on my bed once I got home.

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January 2, 2007

Happy New Year

Compared to the tumultuous year back in 2005, this past year felt like the sky finally opening up after the storm. Things started to finally fall into place for me as I settled into working at a neat little animation studio and I started coming to terms with the mistakes I've made. There's always the lingering regret of not taking an opportunity I had, and now I've learned to not let myself be pulled into different directions by other people. I guess the biggest blow to my plans on hold was waiting for an event in the summer that ended up crumbling to pieces. Yet, life goes on... I feel that the buildup of all the past experiences and this desire of mine that I've been harbouring for the past 3 years will finally culminate in achieving my big plan - and I'm not letting anyone get in my way! I won't reveal what it is yet for fear of jinxing myself but it's in the works.

Last year I've had to say goodbye to friends who've moved away. I've also unfortunately made emotional cut-offs from friends from whom I've grown apart, as hard as it was. Not caring anymore equates to less emotional stress and more happiness. Yes, this girl is moving on. On the flip side, I got to meet a whole bunch of fantabulous TNA people dodging balls, paddling dragonboats, and incurring ball hockey injuries.

And now for my yearly tradition of listing my memorable (and not so memorable) things from 2006:

All my baking/cooking hits & misses · Winterlude in Ottawa with Christian, which was cancelled due to the super warm weather · the Philosopher King's performance at First Canadian Place · getting published in a photography magazine · Filogix's Festivus party at Crowne Plaza Hotel · my 25th birthday >_< · Coldplay concert with Kris · Montreal during Easter with Christian, Sunnie and Vanessa · highlighting my hair for the first (and last) time · climbing the CN Tower for WWF with Kris and Cat · becoming a converted steak lover at David Duncan House · 2 food poisonings (one of them from East- never eat there!) · TSO concerts with Kris · family trip to Montreal in May · going to my first baseball game (aka snoozefest) · having my cousins from Boston visit · biking along the Gardiner/DVP for the Ride for Heart · learning to play Squash · last get together with Cass at the Royal York · crazy hardcore shopping in Grove City, PA during Canada Day weekend · winning bronze in both of our dragonboat festivals · exhibiting my button design at the One Inch Punch show · trip to Quebec City with Christian and trying rabbit at Le Lapin Saut� · Taste of the Danforth with family and Lilly · cottaging for the first time (never again- I'd rather go camping) · going to Sudbury for the first time (again, never again) · a day riding kiddie rides at Centreville with Christian · volunteering at the Film Fest and seeing Brad Pitt up close *sigh* · playing Waking City · exhibiting at the Red Head Gallery for Nuit Blanche · staying out all night (almost) for Nuit Blanche · taking Kris to the Sleeping Beauty ballet · volunteering at the Santa Clause Parade · selling my work at OCAD's Whodunit exhibit · watching the Chicago musical starring BSB's Kevin Richardson (and was he ever fantastic!) · discovering my inner ball hockey killah · exhibiting at Toronto Pearson Airport until June

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April 23, 2006

Experiencing Quarter-Life Crisis?

I never used to have the urge to ever colour my hair; I've always been content with its darkness (as someone sitting behind me once commented, "it's like staring into space"). But ever since the big 2-5 hit me I feel like my small window of youthfulness I have left is slamming shut. It's going to be getting harder to be able to pull off a fun style that youth can get away with. I don't ever want to look ridiculous like those aging woman at my gym who do anything they can to still look "hip": long fake nails with excessive decorations, skin tight, low-cut, midriff-baring tops, belly rings on their saggy, bulging tummies, over-the-top makeup, and unflatteringly high heels (just to name a few). Maybe I'm being too critical but to be honest, it looks pretty sad and pathetic when people try so hard to not look their age.

So, I've decided that now is the time for me to just go all out. I want to go bold. Like red. Or maybe I'll just chicken out.

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March 12, 2006

Quarter Of A Century

That's a long time man. Halfway to 50... aiya! >_< I still don't think I really got used to thinking I was 24; either that or my memory is going down the toilet. Time's passing me by too quickly, and it all keeps going downhill.

Last week was rough. With so little sleep I felt like a walking zombie during the day. It was only on Friday when I guess I had adjusted to feeling so exhausted that I felt relatively energized (if that makes any sense). In any case, it felt awesome to go to bed at 10pm on a Friday night (yes, I'm turning into an old granny).

Last night I celebrated my b-day with friends at La Fenice. Christian ordered in a Cookies & Cream Baskin Robbins cake, which I was all over like a fat kid on a Smartie (thanks babe)!! We ended up staying at the restaurant until 11:30 so it was too late to go out dancing since most people had to start heading home anyway. Nonethless it was a good time! A few of us decided to head up to North York Centre for some good ol' bubble tea and... rounds of Big Two. How much more fobby can you really get? All that was missing at our table were the Jap/K magazines. Although I got home just before 2am I ended up staying on the phone until 3am keeping someone company as he rode the Vomit Comet back home :(

This morning I forced myself to wake up at 8:30 to go to the gym. As difficult as that was, I felt so much better after my class. Now I'm just waiting for a nice facial appointment that my mom's treating me to, and deciding where to go for dinner tonight with my family and Christian. I'm thinking either Malaysian or Korean... this time I'm making the decision- it's time for something other than Chinese at Pacific Mall!

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January 4, 2006

Happy 2006

It was a festive and, for a few people, a wild new year's eve party at Christian's. Let's just say that the few us that stayed overnight were up until 4am... the photos that will never see the light of day tell the story. However, I *will* put up pics of my oh so yummy Candy Cane Cake! It's actually an upside down angel cake because when I tried to flip it right side up, the whole cake cracked >_< Luckily my dad was around to help me flip it back without completely destroying it to pieces :) As per usual, continue reading for the recipe!

New Year's day was spent doing some cleaning up at Christian's before heading up to Pacific Mall to meet with my family and relatives for dinner. The rest of the evening was spent at my place playing mah jong and poker until 3am.

Reflecting back on 2005, this year turned out to be a huge emotional roller-coaster for me. A bit of it was of course school related, having been stressed with not only school work but with creating the CSSU yearbook. But those were just peanuts compared to having to come to terms with the fact that I was entering a new phase in my life and was forever leaving my student life behind me. Immediately following my convocation it all hit me- hard, and I fell into a sort of depression that I hadn't experienced since my high school days. It was a variety of different things that kept putting me in slumps. I had all these plans of things that I wanted to do after graduating, yet I didn't know exactly when I wanted to do each thing... it felt like I was being pulled in all sorts of directions and I couldn't focus on one thing. Even now I get anxious thinking about what path I should follow. I gave up the photography job on the cruise ship in the fall (and instead, landed a job from hell) and I don't know whether I should still go for it come summertime or just give up on it and move on. During my last year I never worried about going to those career fairs or applying to companies to get a job right after school. That wasn't my goal- I didn't want to feel stuck in a job so early on before I got a chance to do something adventurous and exciting. I figured doing my own thing would be satisfying and fulfilling, but in the end it was frustrating and I feel like it didn't amount to much. I hate to say it, but sometimes I regretted not getting a stable and boring computer job... at least I wouldn't feel useless and demoralized. Through it all, sweet BFF helped put things in perspective for me and lifted me up during my lowest lows, and for that I am so thankful ^_^

On a happier note, 2005 also had its memorable moments:
Bus driver losing bus keys during the CSSU ski trip and waiting a few hours for another bus to drive us home reading week trip to Montreal with Christian dogde ball games at Hart House salsa dancing for the first time experiementing with a Hasselblad seeing the CS gang all dressed up for the CSSU formal having my photographs published and exhibited completing a decent application for Capstone waiting 7 hours in line to see Coldplay at The Edge only to be completely shafted 24 marathons biking 50 km along the Gardiner and DVP camping trip at Algonquin Canada Day in Ottawa with Christian discovering the amazing gym classes at Hart House taking a fashion photography course leading to fashion shoots with models watching Kid Koala perform at the Harbourfront's Dim Sum festival seeing Nel on his summer visit back from HK spending a day at Centreville with Christian and winning stuffed toys for the both of us beach volleyball at Ashbridges Bay getting creamed with bananas sitting front row centre at the Blue Man Group show tennis nights with Dennis & co. seeing big stars while volunteering at the film festival hiking in the Cheltenham Badlands 6 days of Disneyworld "boot camp" dining at Canoe and Rosewater Supper Club having had the best Christmas holiday to date

Candy Cane Cake

1 box Betty Crocker SuperMoist white cake mix
1 1/4 cups water
1/3 cup vegetable oil
3 egg whites
1/2 teaspoon red food color
1/2 teaspoon peppermint extract

White Icing
1 cup powdered sugar
1 tablespoon milk or water
1/2 teaspoon vanilla, if desired

Crushed candy canes or crushed hard peppermint candies, if desired


1. Heat oven to 350F. Generously grease and flour 12-cup fluted tube (bundt cake) pan.

2. In large bowl, beat cake mix, water, oil and egg whites with electric mixer on low speed 30 seconds; beat on medium speed 2 minutes, scraping bowl occasionally.

3. Pour about 2 cups batter into pan. Pour about 3/4 cup batter into small bowl; stir in food color and peppermint extract. Carefully pour pink batter over white batter in pan. Carefully pour remaining white batter over pink batter.

4. Bake 45 to 50 minutes or until toothpick inserted in center comes out clean. Cool 10 minutes. Turn pan upside down onto wire rack or heatproof serving plate; remove pan. Cool cake completely, about 1 hour.

5. In small bowl, mix all icing ingredients. Stir in additional milk, 1 teaspoon at a time, until smooth and spreadable. Spread icing over cake. Sprinkle top with crushed candy.

Makes 12 servings.

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November 1, 2005

Doesn't Seem Like An Adventure To Me

Today's horoscope:

You will soon see just how much has been altered as a result of something seemingly innocuous. Be glad of the drama in your world. This is fuel for adventure.

And the rollercoaster (aka The Great Depression) rumbles on.

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October 29, 2005

My Job Is Bad For My Health

I thought school was bad for my health (all-nightetrs, irregular sleep/eating patterns), but I've never been under so much physical/emotional stress until I started this job. During the first few days of work, I was given such a low, sucky chair to sit in that I started getting backaches and felt like I was developing carpel tunnel. Turns out they had a whole room of good chairs, and never bothered to hook me up until I had to ask. Next comes the absolute exhaustion I've been experiencing ever since I started work. Not only am I commuting approx. 3 hours every day, but in my first week I ended up working 60 hours, not including my 3 hours of tutoring. Even though I do get paid for those overtime hours, it is SO not worth it. Then there's the issue of the office lighting. The lighting is practically non-existent. During the day it's fine since the loft windows are massive and let in enough light. But come late afternoon, it's so dark that the only light around my desk is coming from my monitor. I have no desk lamp, and the company has none to give me. So my eye's been terribly strained for the past couple of weeks and has finally blown up into an infection. OMG. Dying.

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October 27, 2005

Today's Horoscope

Take everything that's urgent and important and lock them away for a day. Forget it all. Let it be. They've got you running round in circles. With just a little rest, you will return revivified and replenished.

Enough said. Will blog more about my disgruntled life when I have the time (and energy). It's past my bedtime now... I've become an old grandma.

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August 22, 2005

The Road Not Taken

The interview for the photography job with Princess Cruises went really well last week. I think I have a pretty good chance of getting the job, and right now, after having contemplated the idea of it, it's something that I would really like to try. The only downside is that it's a 6-month contract, meaning I'm away from doing anything else computer or design related. My mom's especially concerned that I'll be missing so many career opportunities here and by the time I come back it will be hard for me to get back into the game. Of course she brings up some valid points, but I feel this is a once-in-a-lifetime experience and if I don't do it, I'll regret it later on in life. And what is 6 months out of your whole entire life? Just a blip.

The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

- Robert Frost

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August 9, 2005

What's It All Coming To?

First off, today was a pretty sucky day... I was supposed to get a few things completed or resolved but nothing of the sort happened. Now I'm all anxious...

And this whole 'I'm finished school but I'm so unemployed' is starting to get to me. Yeah I'm keeping busy with some projects here and there but the only work I'm doing is volunteer and even planning out the fashion shoot for the designer is a headache 'cuz she's totally out to lunch. Then there's the photography job that was pushed until August... I don't know if I should pursue it again or if they still need a photographer. Everything is so wishy-washy. I hate wishy washy. It feels like I'm dealing with these types of people every day, like waiting or chasing after them so I can get on with my task of doing a favour for them. It's all so tiring. I need money. I just want to pack my bags and go away for a very very long time; I'm even considering just moving somewhere else and looking for a job when I arrive. Now I'm unsure about whether to keep looking for a real job in Toronto, or just quickly find a McJob for a while to earn some more money so I can get the hell out. For the past couple of days I've just been pondering over something my mom revealed to me... it could explain why I've been in such a slump for this long. I can take it and believe this is my fate for this year and give up job hunting for now, or I can try even harder to prove it wrong. But it's so discouraging when you work so hard and nothing comes out of it.

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March 12, 2005

Old Girl

You know I've always considered 25 as being the point where you hit your quarter-life crisis. But really, the average human lifespan is about 80 years, so in fact, the quarter-life crisis hits at the age of 20-21. Yikes, that makes me feel even more old! I thought I had one more year before this impending doom, but alas, it's hit and has passed me by without my conscious knowledge. I'm telling you, everything starts to go downhill after 21...

I can't pull those crazy strings of all-nighters anymore, candy gives me toothaches, and the first-years look oh so young. I'd probably lose at Four Square or Wall Ball. I no longer dream of getting the entire Sweet Valley High series for a wedding gift. Gremlins don't scare the bejezus out of me and the cute Michelle Tanner is on her way to becoming a billionaire.

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February 9, 2005


Happy year of the rooster! One of the great things about being Chinese is getting to celebrate another holiday where you receive money and eat lots of food! *sigh* I really am getting old. I remember the last time it was the rooster year I was thinking ahead to how old I would be the next time it came around. TWENTY-FOUR?! Holy jeez, that's OOOOLD!!! And now here I am.

For all my fellow rooster compadres here's what's in store for this year:

The Rooster can expect some conjugal or family challenges this year. To come out well, take the bull by the horns and solve these situations with lucidity and aggressiveness, instead of burying your head in the sand. Remember that nobody can solve problems by fleeing or by pretending that they don't exist. It is all a question of courage. 'It's not because things are difficult that we dare not, it's because we dare not that things are difficult,' as Seneca wrote. Even though a solution may not immediately show itself, an optimistic, philosophical attitude could soften the cutting edge of any obstacles.

And more specifically, here's the forecast for the metal roosters:

Your self-confidence will prove to be your best ally. The stars will favor your professional success by allowing you to profit from superb opportunities. Heartwise, you'll have every reason to rejoice. Harmony will reign in your couple and, if you're free, you could very well meet your great love this year.

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January 21, 2005

So I'm Not Going Over The Hill

If only this were true...

You Are 22 Years Old


Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

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August 14, 2004

Time's Passing Me By

Today is my youngest sister's 17th birthday. Woweee, she's really growing up. She's hit the age at which I had a turning point. The day of my 17th birthday I woke up, realized I was actually 17 and a wave of depression washed over me. I didn't even want to get out of bed. It was the first time where having a birthday actually made me feel OLD.

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